Available via Zoom (EST / EDT timezone)
These private sessions are tailored to you.
They are confidential and all questions, curiosities, fears and doubts are welcome.
This is a space where you can comfortably share your truths, vulnerabilities and all the shame and feelings of wrongness that may or may not come with it. There’s no judgement in how you are or where you’ve been because nothing defines you.
You are nothing in particular.
Or, you can say that you are everything. Not as an idea, belief, feeling or thing.
What simply is, is the only thing there is. And it can’t be claimed, owned, known, separated or related to in any way.
All of you is allowed.
That which you feel like is you, or think you are… was never a problem. It was never something to shun away or be ashamed of. To hide or cover up. Even though, unfortunately, there are plenty of reasons why we were made to feel bad about who and how we are.
Life doesn’t judge you, see you, or recognize you in the way you think it does.
This doesn’t mean deny the past, this may mean fully owning it and embracing it to a degree that was never possible when you only thought that that was you. There can be a proper mending or healing of the past but not from a place of ‘I should’ and merit, but rather because it just feels right. Whether that means saying sorry or finally speaking your whole truth even if it means you may lose that relationship. It may just come to a point where the internal struggle and fight is no longer worth holding on to. Things can be seen from a completely different light when it’s clearer that there was no-one there to be responsible for anything.
You’re simply not there.
You’ve never been in control of anything. The illusion is that you were. You were a separate individual, creating your own world, living a life… and that world inevitably oscillates from good to bad, high and low, triumph and devastation… there’s such beauty in those stories but they are not absolute truth… That is not what’s actually happening.
This doesn’t mean we can’t freely speak about them, express them, give them light and let them breathe. In fact, they can only truly be aired out when it’s no longer really about you, you can finally own your truth. You’re free to dance, play, express and be yourself. These things that were hidden and shunned away are finally seen and nourished. And perhaps they start to loosen their grip…
The utter mystery of life is only clear when the thoughts lose their power.
They used to be in the forefront but now they’re part of the environment. But this doesn’t happen through force, control and manipulation… it mainly is a natural side effect of the loss of what you thought you were and had in life, the loss of hopes and dreams, the loss of the known.
The loss of your reality.
It’s the hardest thing one can ever go through… the loss of oneself.
But in the apparent end, the distinction between life and death, joy and grief… they become like a mist… without an edge or border. Unknown… it simply just is what it is.
…In the apparent end, it can be seen as a relief to not desperately want, need, desire, long for anything anymore… There’s nowhere to get to. It’s simply just this. There’s just peace and rest and the natural tendencies of the body reveal itself. You’ve basically experienced your own death while the body is still alive and then it’s seen that you never existed to begin with.

Explore my past experience at the end of the ABOUT page:


Email me @ with the subject line ‘RETURNING 1:1
if I have seen you at least once and you would like to schedule an
earlier meeting than what’s available below


These sessions are completely confidential
Availability may be found in August / September 2024
A calendar event will automatically be sent to you after booking,
but it may be a good idea to set another reminder that works best for you.
You will be able to get access to a private calendar with earlier availabilities after our first meeting.
If you are able to afford a higher tier, it would be greatly appreciated. All taxes and fees are already included. Thank you so much for booking & I look forward to meeting you.
Love, Suzanne

If you are having trouble booking below, please try this link:

There is no desire to stick to any title or label
ZOOM LINK: The zoom link can be found in the confirmation email, reminder email (sent 1hr before meeting) or the calendar event
RECORDING: Let me know at the beginning of the session if you’d like to record for your own private use. It will be emailed to you & deleted after 2 weeks
RESCHEDULE: All bookings are final but you are welcome to reschedule 5 days before session, through the booking system

NOTE: If there happens to be a blank screen or CAPTCHA issue after booking, please check you email first before attempting to book again. A confirmation email is usually sent very soon after if it successfully went through. Thanks!


Marc is available for voice calls through Whatsapp (GMT / BST timezone)
Everything’s welcome, these calls are completely confidential
He’s honest, no nonsense, no bullshit, no agenda
and therefore clear of any motives
That’s unbelievably rare
He’s the only (non)person that I recommend and trust
Any description doesn’t make sense anymore but he is the closest person to me. He is 50% of my YT channel, meaning I probably would have stopped a long time ago if it wasn’t for his immeasurable love, gentleness & support.
He is a true blessing and the main reason I disappeared (take all of this lightly, it’s just a story and it doesn’t mean that should or will happen anywhere else)
Feel free to ask questions, mention any stuck-ness or just see where the conversation goes
He has no incentive to speak but is open to do so in exchange for £60 / hour
Please contact him @


This is a little tribute to my dear friend Marc
We killed and healed each other
(metaphorically speaking)